This and that...

It seems that I don't know what to write about when I am out of my normal routine.

FOUR more nights until D.T. is back here. I cannot wait!

I never thought I would miss work so much, but I do. Yep, this is a little too much vacation for me. :-)

We did Christmas cards yesterday. Not mine. My parents. I'm not doing Christmas cards this year. Last year, either, for that matter. So... MERRY CHRISTMAS, everyone! :-)

How about your family? Do you still send Christmas cards???

Oh, and how many inches of snow do you have at your place? We could have a contest and see who has the most! We have a lot, but not as much as D.T. does! Strange... and he's the one down South! ;-)

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Today, I choose joy (no, I haven't forgotten about joy) in the lovely neighbor who agreed to snow blow our driveway here since my dad could not do it, and I certainly could not do it either! :-)

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


***Don't forget to pray for someone today!

Timing...

Sometimes, I often wonder what God's clock looks like. We recently learned that we had finally been matched up with two different birth mothers to have our profile shown. Now, that doesn't really mean anything other than two birth mothers will look at our album along with the albums of other prospective couples who match up as well. Then, the birth mothers decide if they are interested in meeting us or seeing our actual home study.

Goodness, this is a long process. Our contract with the agency is for 30 months, and 12 have passed by so far. That means we potentially have 18 more months to wait. Then, at the end of those 18 months, if a birth mother has not selected us, we will move on to another agency. Of course, we could always look at other agencies in the meantime, but that would cost money (a whole lot of money) and would involve us going through the whole paperwork process we have already done all over again. That doesn't sound like fun to me. Actually, I think I'd rather have all my fingernails ripped out than to go through all that paperwork again! Ahem.

The reason I decided to write about this today in the middle of all the chaos going on in my family life at the moment is twofold.

First, I think I have a little glimpse of why nothing has happened yet. I mean, can you even begin to imagine the last week of my life if we had already received a placement?

*shudder*

Second, I wanted to share with you a video of the home associated with our agency. If you would like to see it, you should click over *here* to visit some friends of ours. It's actually kind of weird for me to watch this video because I've met almost everyone in it, including some of the birth mothers. It seems... well... surreal to me. It makes me emotional. It grabs on to me. I've asked God over and over... why here? why now? why this place? why this agency? I've asked Him, can't we look someplace else? And, every time, He says, no, wait, not yet, or some other version of what I don't really want to hear.

I guess, then, we'll just continue to wait. Gosh, I hate that.

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


***Don't forget to pray for someone today!

Blah...

Well, my dad came home yesterday on a new medication, and my sister left an hour ago to go back to her home 4 hours away. It is just me and my parents. That feels weird. I miss D.T. and the dogs. I miss my routine. I miss my bed. I will be here until after Christmas to help out and get everyone settled and a little more healthy.

Right now, I just feel *blah*.

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


***Don't forget to pray for someone today!

Thoughts...

D.T. is at work early today making up hours. My dad *may* get to come home today, on a new medication that *seems* to be working. I am the only one awake in the house right now. I am trying to figure out what God is trying to teach me in all of this. I dropped the intensive grad class I was supposed to take in January. There is just no way I could concentrate on reading the books I was supposed to finish before class. It will wait until later. My sister leaves tomorrow. I miss my dogs and my husband. I don't know what else to say.

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


***Don't forget to pray for someone today!

Can I just say?

This sucks! For those of you who are just newly joining me on my blog, welcome to my place of honesty. Really. It sucks!

My dad is still in the hospital. My sister is here now. D.T. just left to go home and work (read: make some money.) I can count on one hand the number of times we have been separated from each other in 12, almost 13 years of marriage... when he went in to the army, when he went to tax training for work (twice), and now.

Oh, and Monday will be our 13th anniversary, and we won't be together. Bad luck? (I really don't believe that.)

I'll say it again. This SUCKS!

Okay, now I feel better. No, that's not true. I don't.

I promise I will return in a better mood sometime later today or tomorrow. Thank you for listening and for not getting annoyed with my *suck*-y mood.

Living in His JOY, HOPE, and PEACE...


***Don't forget to pray for someone today!